Music.

I mean…in all reality, I think I’ll always feel like music saves lives – it has mine. It’s really kind of amazing how big of a part it plays, (no pun intended …or maybe there is), in my life. As far back as I can remember, music was in my life- my mom often sang to me as a baby into childhood and even still she loves sharing music- (Elvis, Patsy Cline, Frank Sinatra etc). My Dad did the same, I remember him introducing me to many bands and artists and recall him saying, “Jenny, one day you’ll think, this is good music.” (Some examples he shared were: The Talking Heads, Pink Floyd, Queen, Don Henley, Jimi Hendrix, The Beatles and so on; (he was right).)

I feel like most people I have encountered in my journey all seem to seek music to heal, to feel, to let go, to hold on, to let loose or just be. There are a few that I have encountered, that said music just isn’t a big part of their life …that’s totally okay; I just hope something feels like music for them.

Music, I think sometimes isn’t just made by a musician, a band, an artist …. If you listen, I think much of life is music …the birds chirping, whistling of the wind, falling of the leaves, sound of the ocean waves..etc – it’s all music. I’m thankful for that. 🙂

So, I was thinking…if music plays such a big part in my life, I’m sure it does for others too. I think one of the best things in life is sharing new music with others; I certainly can say I am seriously thankful when someone shows me new music or even reminds me of music I already know but, has stashed some place in the back of my mind.

So, I thought I’d share some music, that has been healing, enjoyable, or even life saving -changing for myself.

This is in no order as far as my favorites for music, just some that come to mind now.…

Nothing Compares to you – Chris Cornell’s version. Wow. In my opinion, one of the most beautiful songs and this is my personal favorite version. – and thanks for writing this beautiful song to the one and only, Prince. 💜

“Dancing in the dark” by Bruce Springsteen, cover by Vance Joy. I just didn’t listen to the the lyrics in the original the way I do with this cover. He slows down the song and the lyrics and meaning of the song, just comes to life for me.

“Pig” by Dave Matthew’s Band, I love this song mostly for the lyrics. It’s a song about life and I think it can help one recognize their blessings of they listen enough; for me it does. Some of the lyrics are here below; about greed and love and time….

“Is this not enough
This blessed sip of life, is it not enough?
Staring down at the ground?
Oh, then complain and pray for more from above
Ya greedy, little pig
Stop, just watch your world trickle away
Oh, it’s your problem now
It’ll all be dead and gone in a few short years

Oh, just love will open our eyes
Just love will put the hope back in our minds
Much more than we could ever know
Oh, so, don’t burn the day away
Don’t burn the day away…”.

“Terrible Lie”, NIN- Nine Inch Nails. This song is a song about anger I suppose and anger directed towards self pity? Asking God why perhaps…

Nine Inch Nails can sometimes be pretty dark but so deep and the album, Pretty Hate Machine, I was introduced to in my senior hear of high school – angry teen alert lol… actually I wasn’t an angry teen – I always felt quite content and happy I think. Through the years though, as I have listened to this album, I’ve usually listened when I was in a somewhat dark place, not always though. Trent Reznor- singer/songwriter, is close to a genius in songwriting in my opinion and these songs tend to speak for you when you can’t. But when I do listen, when it’s a little darker, I always feel like when listening to this music, I can kind of bathe in the sadness for a bit and somehow in the midst of it, it makes me feel better. Sometimes you just need that release…

Overkill, by Colin Hay (acoustic version) – more well known perhaps from the band, Men at Work, but wow … this acoustic version just seems to say so much of what the feeling is when you can’t sleep and just overthink … (could be about fear of change, fear or leaving or losing someone or something or a place…just a lot of ways to relate to it I think)…good stuff:

Stay Wild, by The Bones of J.R. Jones – this song, the beat is so chill and relaxing and just flows but the meaning behind the song is great too. It’s a reminder to stay alive, instead of just falling into the mundane day to day repetitive life style – but rather to keep up with living- dance randomly, feel fully – embrace life.

Creature Feature, by 311. This song along with so many others of 311’s, are music that I just love. The lyrics and their music has certainly been life saving and life clanging for me over the years; this one is like fighting between the light and the dark, good and bad …

Talk is cheap, by Chet Faker. Love this live version of this song – his music is really good, cool- different, artistic and unique. I also love the song, Drop the Game. I have no idea why, but I like to tap dance to his music. (Yep, I tap, and it’s just so relaxing to me and random dancing is fun. ;))

Lost, by Dermot Kennedy. He is from Ireland- the depth of his lyrics and music clearly come straight from his personal experiences and heart. This artist, works relentlessly, to spread messages and love; he does these things called street sessions and he plays for a crowd in the street in different cities and countries. The street sessions, he chooses a local charity to donate to- he is super amazing as a person. Also, for each of his concerts, he has local artists submit their music to him and will choose one artist each time as the opener to his show, just so that he can’t help an artist perhaps become known. So cool. Super thankful to have discovered him a few years ago- (I love SiriusXM radio for these reasons.) I’ve seen him live twice and definitely will go back again and likely again. It’s hard to choose one song though but I chose this one, because it’s about loss, love, no control, choices, happiness, joy…just all the stuff love brings along with it. Enjoy 🙂

So Real, by Jeff Buckley. I hope you know who Jeff Buckley is and I hope you have listened to his music because no one should be deprived of that kind of beauty. Wow. He died way too young; I can only how amazing imagine seeing him live would have been. Despite his shortened life, he left such beautiful music and art behind – thankful for that. This song is powerful. I almost shared his version of, Leonard Cohen’s, Hallelujah- because whoa, but this one I just had to. Enjoy.

Three Little Birds, by Bob Marley. (I almost wanted to share Redemption song because I listened to that earlier and each time I do, I love listening to it even more; just the depth of the meaning, the feeling in the singing, the music – all of it.) Three Little Birds though, will always represent a really difficult time in life that this song brought light to and made it easier to handle, reassuring and comforting. It gives you hope, it helps you live in the moment and it’s so important, I have it tattooed on me. 🙂 🕊🕊🕊 💚💛❤️

Here Comes the Sun, by The Beatles. have you ever thought what the music of your life would be like? Which songs are part of your life theme songs…this is one- I have no idea but it pops into my head so often; it’s a great reminder too with a great message. This song, along with just the band in general always will feel a bit like home to me. As mentioned above, my dad (and mom too) both love The Beatles, so their music was kind of a staple ‘in my life’, (another great song of theirs ;))

Sir Duke, by Stevie Wonder. One of my favorites always, this song is just amazing and if you’re a music lover, you probably agree or can relate to the lyrics in ways at least.

Fuel by, Ani DiFranco. If you’re an Ani fan, congratulations, she’s great. A woman who speaks her mind and just is who she is. You can feel how passionate she is about the words she speaks (sings)- they may or may not be what all agree on, but it’s super important to keep your voice in life and I think she does that so well. (The album, Little Plastic Castle is another one of my favorites beginning to end.)

Society, by Eddie Vedder. If you feel like a stranger to this society, so do I, and it’s so brave to break free or at least not follow the crowd. I think it’s important to lead your own way without conforming to what is wanted, and abused, taken for granted, and over consumed by the main flow of society.

Disarm, by Smashing Pumpkins (acoustic version). Just love this song but it’s heavy. It’s surprising, (and also not surprising, because music), how music can do that, but it’s so healthy in a way to release pain through music writing instead of acting on anger. The singer/ songwriter, Billy Corrigan, stated he wrote this song about his childhood and the abuse he dealt with by his parents…

“Disarm you with a smile”, it’s said that it was Billy’s attempt to disarm his parents’ abuse by smiling and keeping peace, thereby keeping everyone happy while lessening the result of conflict/violence. “I used to be a little boy. So old in my shoes”, is referring to Billy having to grow up too soon which is typical in abusive homes.

Sadly, I think some children are just children because the number of years since their birth says that, but they are much more grown and have learned to grow up in certain ways way quicker than what would be ideal for a young child. Anyway, it is how you interpret the song too- wherever you find that it takes you to, I’m sure will be healing and helpful.

Next To Me, by Joshua Radin. Not super well known but this is my ocean song. Each time I hear it, it makes me think of the ocean and I’ve run countless miles along the ocean listening to this song, (another song I could listen on repeat and not get tired of.). It flows and it’s so peaceful. It’s funny how the meaning of a song can change, in time, but it always brings me back to the ocean. The lyrics I can relate to so much too though; it is a song about the desire for companionship, connection and love to share. Enjoy.

Warning, by Incubus. One of my favorites because the message in it: reminder to live – a warning -and these guys are so amazing live – if you get a chance and enjoy their music- go see them! 🙂

There are so many songs and artists I want to share but I’d go in forever- I’ll publish this blog post and think of so many artists and songs that I would have loved to share in this too. Again, these are in no way in any order – they are just a bit of what came to mind and have meaning to me. I also, am so thankful to be friends with many musicians who create and play such amazing music – thank you.

Gracias for reading (and listening if you did/do). Be kind to each other. Listen to music to help open your mind, take you away, bring you back, help you feel, and heal etc. And please feel free to share music right back. Thank you in advance.

***Thank you to the music makers; song writers, musicians- artists. Much of music is written from pain and joy and many other emotions, so thanks for being open and vulnerable and sharing with us all, especially in such a heavily cynical and guarded world we live in- it’s brave, beautiful and you’re saving lives. 🙂 ***

Peace. Have a day, Jenny.

P.S. 😉 Oh and, a recent concert I attended, Ray LaMontagne; I just realized I did not share any of his music … see?! I’m already thinking of some I failed to share ;).
“Such a Simple Thing” and “Empty “, by him are a couple of great ones.

***I do not own the rights to any of this music. *** 😉

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Sky Full of Stars. ~ Coldplay.

Thoughts; It may not be normal but, really is there even such a thing anyway?…normal. So yeah, been thinking; kind of doing a lot of that as always but, maybe more so because, I’ve kind of stayed away from social media quite a bit lately and then, to myself for most part; much of this year actually…pretty tough year at times- ups and downs, challenges and changes.- such is life I suppose- good times and bad and a solid, okay…ish at times too. 🙂

So here are some things I thought and consider…

Social media is not real life.

Some people seem to value their own ego over their soul. (Not all but quite a bit of society).

Animals are better than people. (many anyway but as a whole, yes).

You cannot control much of what happens to you or others actions, you can only control how you react and then, how you adjust; well…you keep trying and learning and trying and learning.

Things are not always as they seem, no matter how much we want to believe they they are. (this one can be suuuper hard to accept).

Our broken society has people covering up in masks daily; not referring to the Covid ones. (Which thankfully we aren’t wearing any longer – for most part anyway).

When you’re someone who fights conforming to a cold ” throw away society”, you’re misunderstood.

Sometimes I don’t feel like I fit in but, most times I’m glad about that.

Kindness is looked at as a weakness by many.

People who try hard for others are less appreciated than those who barely give them attention.

It’s hard having to wonder if someone cares; chances are if you have to wonder, they probably don’t but, maybe they do…who knows. 🥺 The reality is, we don’t really know what any one person or persons is/are thinking; I mean it’s hard enough to keep up with our own thoughts but what’s important is being mindful in what’s real and what’s just thoughts and ideas. Sometimes it’s just good to just be and try to go with the flow, yo. 🤓

Balance is key to so much in life…so much.

Missing someone is the absolute worst part of life.

Loving someone is the best part of life.

Loss changes you.

Vulnerability is fucking brave and attractive.

It’s important to love without conditions and wholly.

Consistency matters in life; in many areas; especially for any growth.

Becoming mindful of patterns in life is important; changing them is hard but, if change is desired, remember…nothing changes if nothing changes.

Things left unsaid will always be things left unsaid. 😔

It’s really rare for me to really share, so if I do or have, know I truly care.

Not being able to live out something you believe to be beautiful is tragic.

Sometimes in order to show love is to not show love. I don’t know if that sounds right in words but, basically real love, loves with an open hand and through it all.

Life without passion is lame.

Many dreams are easily attainable if you make them happen.

We as humans are conditioned to more so doubt than to believe, although truly believing is what we strive for; try to believe; good stuff is for real, although bad stuff may stand out more, we are more accustomed to it for some reason; it seems to feel more natural but, good is real and should be embraced.

When in doubt, dance. 😊💞

I missed smiles from strangers; happy to see them again.

Good hugs are healing to the soul; probably in need of one of those really good ones soon.

Life; It’s about what we give and not what we get .

Some people just make you feel something you never knew you could; that’s pretty beautiful actually.

Some people don’t even realize the beauty they have for the world; that’s what makes them even more beautiful….actually kind of amazing. 😘

All emotions make up life. :)😐🥺🥰😝🤓🤪😢😡🤪😊 😔😭Anger has been kind of absent from my life for some time but, this year I’ve felt it again and I’m okay with that; I think was due to some frustration and maybe even some worry but again… all emotions make up life. Emotions just mean you feel things and it’s really good to feel things – all aspects of them.

Love is SO beautiful and the meaning of life, I think. 💞

Real is rare.

It’s scary to think of time.

Time isn’t ours and it’s funny how the one thing that can withstand all time, is love. It lasts through it all.

It’s really fun to run or even just stand in the pouring rain; barefoot. (Summer time rain mostly ;))

I feel most alive in the sun on top of a mountain and near the ocean.

Home is a feeling, not a place; I miss the deep contented feeling of such.

To me, I’d rather be doing nothing with someone I love that anything in the entire world.

Feta cheese belongs on tacos.

There is always something to be thankful for.

So, yeah.. just some random thoughts; some I had a while ago and some recent. Haven’t really shared much lately; time to separate and reflect on it all and deal with some curve balls in life too- way too many for one girl but you get through; we survive…it’s what many of us have been taught and just try to do. Thank you for reading if you still are that is. 😉

Be kind to each other and to yourselves. Share some love in the world; it’s really needed. ❤️💞💜🙏🏻

Love your peeps, hug your peeps; let them love you back; we all deserve that.

None of the above is actual factual, ha; I mean, it may be but – it’s just random thoughts and opinions of mine…so, some may agree and some may not but, no matter what …feta cheese really IS good on tacos. 😁

Until next time… Have a day! 🌮

Peace, Jenny ✌🏻

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Ever get lost in your thoughts? Like, honestly … the world could be just spinning right around you and there you are, sitting there still but, so active in your thoughts? I’m guessing yes. I mean I think we all get a little lost in thought at times. Of course, depending on the content of what we’re thinking, depends on what emotion we may be feeling behind it. It’s always nice when it’s something really nice, reminiscing beautiful enjoyable moments; 🥰 – those are the best.

So, one recent morning I was a little lost in the thought about being lost. Ha. Kind of ironic but, I was. Was thinking about being lost in the moments actually. ☕️

So here were some random Sunday morning lost in the moments, thoughts:

I think there’s a couple of ways to define being lost in my opinion; lost in your thoughts vs lost in the moment:

Lost in your thoughts:

1. You don’t understand where you’re supposed to be in life, and doubt and confusion pulls you in… you’re left thinking (possibly over thinking), that next thing you know, the moment has passed. So, being lost in thoughts can range from really something trivial to things like actually feeling lost in life …contemplating direction perhaps. <~^~>…

Lost in the moments:

2. You’re so immersed into the moment, (preferably, one of those really beautiful ones we get lost in at the time of, that in turn, gets us into a lost in thought moment in future… “reliving”, reflecting about it all 😊 -it all circles around), you’re in right NOW, that you forget to even wonder where you’re going after and still, next thing you know, the moment is passed again but, this one …you lived in it …dudeeee …ahhh life… there it is 🙂

So, it’s different but, honestly…thinking, writing and then reading this makes we wonder, perhaps it seems that the second one is ideal- to live in the moments NOW- but, really I think it’s probably a mixture of both, (side note lol: while proof reading this, this particular made me think it sounds a little Forrest Gumpish “i think it’s a little of both”, I recall him saying that about something in the movie..anyway….I know random but, so is life, so… ;)), sometimes we feel so fully alive and passion takes over or a really enjoyable moment and then other times … we refocus and reflect; or sometimes it’s just getting lost in song. (Funny, I passed my exit by like 5ish exits one time while listening to Lynyrd Skynyrd’s song, Free Bird lol.. – man, I was soooo late for that appt … sorry , Jenn ✂️ 😉 🤦🏻‍♀️🤘🏻).

Anyway, both kinds of “lost”, are important and both make up the balance in and of life I think.

It’s funny though, the kind of lost where you’re just so into the moment, not overthinking, just enjoying … I think it’s actually in those moments is when we’re actually more so, found. We lose the worry of wondering for a moment and we just enjoy and kind of step in to the feeling of wonderment instead… yep, we jump right in to life. So beautiful.

So, perhaps there comes a time we don’t feel lost in the way of direction in the journey – perhaps that’s a true contentment but, I think for many like I said above … it’s a mixture.

Hopefully, the second wins in a landslide …. but, we can’t appreciate the light unless we walk through the uncertain and darker times too.

And then…remaining grateful for it all…. well, that’s some insight that hopefully we all can find.

But, who knows anyway … life…

Gracias for reading…. if you still are that is ;).

Until next time, may you get lost in some moments to feel found, get lost in some thoughts to reflect and grow and be kind to each other. 🌱

And remember:

We’ll miss out on life, if we’re always trying to be found.

Have a day! 🌮

Peace, Jenny ✌🏻

#haveaday #lostandfound #life #lostinthemoment #wonderment #loveiswhatitisallabout #dude #mynameisforrestforrestGump 😂🙄

Hi- it’s been a while since I’ve actually published a blog; although I have some written, nothing really sparked me enough to push the (publish) button…but, this topic I think many can relate to or maybe not but, thought I’d share Just in case. 🤷🏻‍♀️

So, emotions. Yeah, I mean we all feel them but, some just stand out more than others I think and sometimes you just kind of live through them without actually thinking of what emotion you’re feeling at the time. I think that sometimes even …maybe we don’t feel? Or we lack excitement or increased levels of emotions. I don’t know though because, maybe that even is an emotion. I know personally, I’ve used the word, meh, to describe a feeling at times. It’s actually a word, meh. I texted to someone maybe last year-ish, (pretty sure it was a couple of weeks into strict quarantine and lack of probably a lot triggered the -meh- of something or other in me), and I think initially they thought I misspelled something but, then they said … “what’s meh?”. Of course then I was triggered to find the actual definition of it and yep… it’s a word.

Meh: expressing a lack of interest or enthusiasm. For example: meh, I’m just not feeling this movie so far. (I think many of us can relate to that; you start the movie and a few minutes in you’re like, meh …let’s try something else or I should try something else (depending on if alone or with others). Another random and probably useless fact is, meh was a word that originated from The Simpsons (the tv show). But really … what didn’t originate from that show? Ha. Geez, it seems like The Simpson’s show kind of predicts life sometimes better than scientific or spiritual theories, lol; probably not but, it is quite funny and strange how The Simpsons show seemed to have aired some pretty real stuff that we then live through and we’re like ….umm?…wait, wasn’t this on The Simpson’s? 🙄😂😅🤔. Kind of like right now ish. 🤔

Okay anyway, back to emotions. So, while thinking of writing this, I had to do some research on emotions 🤓; turns out, there are twenty-seven emotions that humans feel. Wow, 27! 🤔 …in a side note for a semi-useful fact, one of the multiple emotions that I was not knowledgeable of was:

~Chagrin (pronounced, (sha-grin), and it means: distress or embarrassment, having failed or been humiliated.(Word of the day I suppose).

There were more than one of those emotions on that list, that I did not know but, more than likely, have felt along the journey. It was said that of those 27 emotions, we humans, (pfft humans 🙄-sometimes it’s hard to grasp being part of a group like us and other times, it feels great), feel typically one of six (6) “basic” emotions:

Happiness.

Sadness.

Anger.

Fear.

Surprise.

And disgust.

I read that and yeah, I agree, in a nutshell it seems those are the correct basic emotions I think we probably all feel at one time or another.

Gonna get a little personal here for a bit and say that for me, I haven’t felt much anger in most recent years; let’s say the past six to eight years. I think it may be from different reasons. I had a really traumatic experience happen and I was thinking maybe it was because, of what I experienced, I just kind of tried to just see and find good in things and accept differences and unexpected things in life. I try not to judge someone for their actions and realize that everyone is standing in their own two feet and I can’t really control how anything is going to be presented but, really only how I react to it. Prior to the trauma, yeah I think anger may have presented itself in life on my end but, for me … I just try to be understanding and such.

Until recently. I felt real anger again for the first time in 6 ish years. I didn’t act on it at all; I didn’t really get the chance but, it was not an anger of revenge or anything. It’s hard to explain some but, I realized, while reflecting on it that past few days or so, that my anger I felt was different; I think more so related to frustration.

I think our emotions obviously 🙄 have triggers. (I love that emoji by the way, 🙄, it says so much without saying much, ha). So yeah, our emotions are triggered by circumstances, by experiences, by situations and really over all, how we handle it all. I think we can teach ourselves sometimes to redirect certain things like anger but, really anger is a normal thing. I mean, it did make the cut for being one of the top 6 emotions, it kind of is a big deal, ha. I have been asked over the past few years, why I don’t get mad or angry and I have said, well… I do, I mean I think I do. But, I really haven’t – I’d like to think that it’s because, I found some sort of peace in how to redirect or remain in gratitude and non-judgement of others actions and such but, what I realized in the past few days is what triggers my anger.

It’s when I feel worried, when I care and maybe see someone being hurt or hurting themselves or whatever it may be and it’s really triggered because, I believe in something or someone. It may not make sense but, when I felt that anger , like I said, it wasn’t a revenge thing and it may not have been the type of anger others feels. We are all different but, mine what out of concern and maybe even a little angry with myself.

Anyway… good news is that I got past it… well kind of ish. But, anyway it felt kind of good in a sense to feel just because, I realized it was really happening because, I just care and recognize value and worth in something and/or someone. It was full of passion and although not the desired emotion/s, like happiness or contentment, it sparked in me a fuck!n (😳 🤭) fire 🔥 I haven’t felt in a while; in a goodish way I suppose and really out of concern and like I said, probably triggered by frustration.

So, the reasoning behind that I figured out …It was feeling helpless; it just came to me. That’s it; that’s when I get angry it’s because I feel helpless and full of love and concern probably that drives that emotion forward. Makes sense really …considering.

We are all individuals and all unique; all led by some emotion at any given time. In this type of world we are living in right now, I think we’ve all seen more anger, sadness, concern and fear…fear is so common these days…sigh. Thinking of you all who are living in deep fear of all going on in our crazy world right now. Try to keep faith, be good to your body, mind and soul and wash yo hands. 😉

I have often said before: all emotions make up life; which is certainly true. All 27 of them! 🤓 😉 And then there are those times in life, where you have shared emotion. 😍 I’m really thankful for those times when you seem to line up and share an emotion with someone like right at the same time and same place. Beautiful. 🙏🏻

So, our emotions are definitely important and it really is okay to feel all of them; after all, we are all human. It’s good to be able to redirect to a healthier one but, that’s a process of learning inner peace I think or at least part of the the process of it and it’s still okay to feel the more difficult ones for sure- to grow, to learn.

Remember: ✨You can’t see the stars without the darkness.✨

(Gotta be real, gotta feel… in order to heal, yo.) 😉

Embrace them all… all the emotions-cry them out, dance them out, shout them out, sing them out, drive them out (long car ride, loud music kinda drive)…. FEEL!!!; it’s okay …and maybe if you can, just let them flow, naturally. Personally, I think it seems like the best way but, that’s just me. Meh. 😉

Gracias for reading… if you still are. 😉

Until next time, be kind to each other.

Be there – show up – be present – support- encourage and don’t get afraid to love -if you can; we all need that… I know I do and am SO very thankful those times in life I’ve felt that. Life …. 🤷🏻‍♀️ Oh, and if you can’t be there, still be somehow, some way. 💗

Share love in the world today.

and have a day! 🌮

Peace, Jenny. ✌🏻

#Haveaday #feel #bereal #heal #love #gratitude #meh

I never want this to end.~ the beginning.

I miss the beginning. ~the end.

I’ll never be good at endings but good news, things don’t have to but, they do go through change and starts and stops but love is the one thing to withstand even death. It withstands it but, it doesn’t mean it’s always easy.

The maintenance, effort and choice to stay with love is what determines its life expectancy or growth determination.

Love needs love and attention to grow; otherwise it stays beautiful in just its time… it is carried along the journey but, it doesn’t reach full potential; it’s stunted. 🌱

Everything grows with love. 💞

With love comes responsibility to maintain care in order for growth; like a garden.

But, without…. the death of it is inevitable; such a tragedy….

Genuine love is rare but, so fucking beautiful when given and received well; it’s also ever lasting, that’s where the pain comes in…when not received or able to share and give, it lies stagnant hopeful for revitalization.

Hopeful for the rebirth of a moment, of beauty; hopeful for continued effort to love still, to stay.

But, to love properly is to love with an open hand… to share a freedom together… to let go when the other side dries up only because the resistance to the care still and let’s go first; that’s the most difficult; at this point, the only way to preserve it is to let go too; not right away though, you stay, you fight, you adjust to the less, you accept the now and you choose to stay, you try to maintain the growth of the seeds, the beautiful flowers that bloomed in the beauty of it all but, if you’re asked to go, you do because, you love them. It’s hard to not want to water and care for someone you love because, to love is to live and to live is to love, so you do still but it’s a different form; not as fulfilling and can be one ended or seem it but, that’s the price of love too and the beauty of the strength of it. Such a tragedy at times; a beautiful amazing in its time, natural, eager to survive, blessed, rare, painful but worth it, love. So yeah, you don’t stop loving them though ; that’s the beauty of love and trying hard to just allow yourself to be guided. It’s like that Topanga and Cory type love – remember them? On Boy Meets World, ha; she said to him something like, “you be you, I’ll be me and if we end up together, it’ll be beautiful” … or something along those lines. As they were separating at a point. To love with an open hand is much easier when that hand stays present but, to do so when the hand lets go…. you still love but, it changes in the sense of inability to give and show but, life…..and pain sets in and you also no longer feel the water being given to you… it’s hard but, again… life … waves of life. 🌊

Be kind to one another;be easy on each other’s hearts and you’ll always have a hand; maintain beautiful things and watch as they bloom.

I’ll always be thankful for the love.

Gracias for reading. Love someone you love today.

Until next time, have a day.

Peace, Jenny ✌🏻

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(Hurry up and live and then…. don’t hurry; and enjoy). Discussed versions of our ultimate “nirvana’s” yesterday in a nice conversation and it made me think. In a very condensed, simplistic version , I thought this….

I want magical. 🦄 💞✨
I want to LIVE and make love to the beauty of the gift of life, the wonderment of adventure- enjoy each aspect of it all; and to share it with a beautiful soul who wants to live too=that’s the nirvana I seek.
Adventure varies – it can be fly fishing in the river, fishing in the deep sea/ in a bungalow in Costa Rica, the budding weed on the ground growing up from a crack in the cement, the ocean water and sand over your feet and then body, the feeling of grass between your toes as you water your garden, the feeling of rain on your skin and just feeling it, jumping in the puddles after, the sound of nature, the smells of a farm nearby, the tastes of food and creating food, then sharing it with someone you love over a talk about anything and everything, not just the small talk, the soul-opening beautiful raw and real talk,
the laughter that doesn’t seem to stop shared with someone you love, and silence in their presence too, a nap in ones arms, driving alone in reflection of it all, smiling at a stranger and then exchanging stories, riding back seat with the windows down, the smile of your one you love, their smell, their touch, their hand, just laying there in nothingness, in peace of fulfillment…. all of it, life.~All of it a miracle. See the beauty in even the smallest of life – it’s all truly a miracle.
Don’t wait though, life’ll pass by in a blink …. the quickest blink ever.
I want to “spend” time; we never know how much we have…we can’t waste that shit.
I know it’s deep, I know it’s real but, if you can’t feel and be real, what’s the point? I just want magic – I do have it but, when the “nirvana” comes in, is when you know another soul feels it too; to share the beauty of all of life with someone is to make love to the soul of one another. When you’ve seen and experienced a loss so unexpected and observed it all over too for others, you just want to LIVE NOW. Hope you’re all feeling alive today. Hug someone you love if you can. Share an authentic smile, high five someone you love or something- get silly, get real. Get naked in your souls and make plans to change the world as you venture the gift of life together. Life……..(again, hurry up and live it and then …don’t hurry.)

Gracias for reading. Be kind to one another. See the miracle and gifts of your blessings. And live! Until next time, have a day! 🌮

Peace, Jenny. ✌🏻

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You’re a sky full of stars; they’re always there… even when you can’t see them. ✨#keeplookingup

I can’t help but, believe in everlasting, in real; in the beauty of it all: after all… isn’t it what drives us?; what keeps us going in this crazy harsh messed up world. It’s what makes the world beautiful, right?; love shared, love reciprocated and felt. Once you’ve seen and felt that, you won’t settle for less than that spark of the soul but, you remain and fight for more; maybe for the saving of it all..I don’t know but, it’s not easy to not fight for once you’ve seen it and felt it. Missing that spark of the soul – the excitement in it all- the belief of connection. Thankful for all that beautiful stuff; so fucking beautiful.

I miss that spark of the soul; that beautiful almost seeming magical kinda connection; I don’t know about magical but, it feels it; like just seemingly set up by the universe; the kind that just happens and naturally; like hand in hand, like oh!… yeah, this; this is right and feels good and this same page is so nice and beautiful. It’s what drives us, that kinda love, that sparks the soul; I miss that. So what do we do? Fight for it? I do! (Jaja… picturing myself in armor showing up to a one-sided battle … crickets chirping in the back, lol like, ehhh, we came out for this?) ha, but really I guess nah…really? Can you even believe that …apparently, nah… I guess we are supposed to accept things that once were and allow the universe to just happen naturally and let go of that if it’s not openly felt on both sides; well, that does makes sense I suppose really. But, what? No courageous battle dressed in full armor to save it all? Lame. Lol … I don’t know why I believe in beautiful everlasting stuff but, somewhere along the line, I fell into that and somewhere along the line, obviously it’s what was present in order for the spark of the soul in the first place. It’s funny, there is a song I listen to by an artist, Brett Dennen, he is semi well known I think; maybe out West more so?, I don’t know but, seems anyone I mention him to, doesn’t recognize him but, seem to enjoy his stuff once I do … so there you go… check him out; a gentle, it’s seems, meaningful lyric song writer and artist all around; I was introduced to him by a very treasured friend (thank you for that if for somehow you ever happen to see this, thanks again). Oh and on a random side note, friends who introduce us to music are really, REALLY important – you should do that for your friends too and recognize that awesomeness when it happens. 😉 So, anyway, yeah the song lyrics … he has a song called, There is So Much More; it’s a nice really relaxed song with lyrics that make you think and seem to have some hidden meaning to them, which is cool too. Yeah, so, the lyrics … “I wondered how so many can be in so much pain, while others don’t seem to feel a thing?”. Well, that makes me think. I think we all feel pain I’m sure; maybe others accept the universal pulls easier and accept ends too and not just beginnings? I think I fall in the category of both but, like to get stuck in that beautiful sparking of the soul type feeling and connection. Connection lasts though, I really do think it does… it gets buried in things that happen though and it either gets saved or it just lies buried; buried and beautiful. It all comes back around somehow though I think.

Maybe that’s it and I do think it helps … maybe it was the dark that helped me realize the light once it was there. Sometimes, we get caught up.. I am big on trying so very hard on not falling into the strains of society and actually, I really feel I’m pulling away in many more ways, not where I’d like to be with it all but, emotionally, I’m me and don’t really fall into the mainstream how-to life style; thankful for that but, some things lead us there and circle us back even if we do it unwillingly-that’s another blog post perhaps. So, the dark. I read a quote the other day that said something like, “the broken will always be able to love harder than the rest; once you’ve been in the dark, you learn to appreciate the light”. <~~|This here….is true… well to some degree, I mean, I can’t say anyone knows if their version of love is more than another and it’s kind of pretentious to even think that. For me though, I do think I appreciate the light more than before the darkness. Once I had such a great loss, it changed me in the way that, you hold on to beauty and recognize it in a different way; probably a way that, to some, may not even seem real. You let go of pettiness, you let things slide more so as far as what you may argue about or something and you just are thankful and grasp on the beauty of it; get thankful right in the very moments of it too. I think it’s important to be in the moment (the now) and yes, I mention that often but, it’s probably one of the most important things to do, well, in my small opinion but, still. Also, by being “so in the now, man”, 🌺, we absorb the moment so intensely that they are engraved into our souls, so… even in each now moment, we carry along past moments that also affect our emotions. And that’s where I also think the lyrics of the above mentioned song also make sense – maybe it’s that, maybe those who feel so much pain, are carrying their past “now” moments with them into this one and it alters it- it gives us expectations in a sense of the potential of the beauty of it all. It can be good and can be bad to do this I think. Good because, you remain appreciative and you remain in the belief in amazing shared beautifulness but, bad because, you’re left wanting that same spark … same connection and feeling of shared togetherness. I don’t know – I guess, again… life ends up being about the balance of it all. Belief in the coming and going of what sparks our soul- it’s all a rollercoaster but, lately I’ve been thinking of it, as waves because, the ocean (😍🌊) and really just because, it makes sense. The waves of life; some so powerful they grasp our everything and some so calm, it brings peace to the soul; the flow of it all, makes life and love, yeah love is what keeps us attentive to the recognition of the waves.

So, hold on to what sparks your soul but, not too tight or you’ll lose it and even if you lose the moments in parts of it, learn from them, believe in them – they were there, they were real. And feel. Don’t be afraid to feel; it’s beautiful – all emotions too… all emotions make up life.

I did a little survey on social media tonight, (well. last night; it’s super early the next day now I guess 🤷🏻‍♀️), before writing this just out of curiosity. I think it’s nice to ask questions sometimes to help people think of things truly important and I think most people are deep and caring; it’s just the busyness of the world, throws people off so a little question to maybe think some. So, my question was…”what inspires you?”.

“What inspires you?”. Well, everyone who answered just about, wrote the people the love and one person wrote waking up (so true too; life 🙌), and another wrote, love. It’s true… the people we love, drive many of us; they drive me I know that’s for certain. After a conversation the other day about me finding passion in something, I realized as I was making some bracelets, that it’s not the action of making bracelets per se that is passionate for me; it’s sharing love with them in the world and really, what drives me to do that , is people I love. I’m so thankful for that and when it’s challenged, it’s hard…. passion can not seem as exciting and be lost kind of. And that right there is why I fight, fight for that spark of the soul to re-light; otherwise, it’s just all kind of lame.

So, hold on to what sparks your soul, remember it happened and it was real; carry those you love with you everywhere you go- even if not in presence. (Side note, I had one of my favorite people in my life, (love you, Glue), leaving his (our) family to go on a new piece of his journey recently and I told him some advice I like to follow by Maya Angelou; to carry our loved ones with us wherever we go- it’s true, it helps and I give her advice on that often – even to christopher when he went to his first job interview, he was nervous and I said, just kind of pretend that everyone you love is sitting at that table with you; carry the strength of that shared and felt love.)

I guess just accept what is now and what was then too. Love though, grows and changes at times and it’s okay. Be really thankful in the moments that spark your soul and soak them up as much as you can. And be okay with love as it comes; I let my walls down and that is when I allowed the sparking of the soul; that two-sided connection mixed with reciprocal feelings; I’m surprised I didn’t run into an actual unicorn, ha. (Now I’m picturing me going to that one-sided, dressed in full armor, battle on a unicorn 🦄 😂). Anywayssss, just know that love transitions, it doesn’t die and it’s okay to just feel and let it do it’s amazingly beautiful transforming and really, yeah, I think it’s probably just best to let the universe manifest what it’s gonna manifest because, it’s better that way and more natural. It’s all waves, it goes out, it comes back… all of it. And really loving with an open hand is best and what’s real and good news, love travels and the one thing that can withstand death.

So, gracias, for reading, if you still are and be kind to those you love and those who love you; we all need that. Take care of one another.

Until next time, have a day.

Peace, Jenny ✌🏻

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Ever feel like things aren’t going to change or in other words, things will last forever? Well, if so… you aren’t alone – I have too I suppose. We get comfy in things and also just expect things to be the same and it’s not like we are thinking about that they will last forever, it’s just we aren’t really thinking they could be gone so soon. But, the harsh reality is… and sometimes blessed reality… everything is temporary- it’s true, well most anyway, I always like to add on that LOVE is the one thing that lasts for always. But, most everything is temporary.

So, yeah…this is a good reminder to know that, to recognize that because, it can help push us along in a difficult time or help us just STOP and ABSORB the BEAUTIFUL TIMES. Both of these things are important I think … to push through and to take time to soak it in during the good but, they aren’t easy tasks to learn or adapt to … well, because in my opinion, our society and lives are typically rush rush and we also tend to get caught up in the busyness of life and don’t have a chance to just chill and take things in for what they are- temporary.

I think I struggle most pushing through the difficult rather than absorbing the good however, I know I still need work on both and I know I’ve improved on both too. I just think being mindful in it all, is what helps the most. Ahhh, mindfulness … kind of a hipster word these days and kind of trendy but, really it’s a good thing it is … if it’s actually being done because, in my opinion…being mindful can truly enhance your life and the lives of those you surround yourself with- they deserve it too (your mindfulness).

So, how do we even do that though? Practice mindfulness…

Mindfulness, as defined in the online Wikipedia dictionary, it says this below: “Mindfulness is the psychological process of purposely bringing one’s attention to experiences occurring in the present moment without judgment.”.

So, “without judgment” it says … being in each moment and bringing your attention to this very moment; pretty cool really… if one can really just be mindful all of life – almost seems impossible but, I don’t think it is but, surely has to be a work in progress at least …ha, it’s like you have to be mindful of being mindful…which, yeah I guess that’s how it all works.

Anyway, (Very random useless information for just about, SIDE NOTE- any time I type the word, anyway… on my autocorrect, it comes out as: anywaysss, with lots of S’s… there in one person in the billions of people in the world who will understand that …jaja🌺 ~it’s funny the autocorrect words that make me smile, random ones you only use with certain people..okay, so back to my point), being in the moment. In now; it really is good to do and can bring peace and understanding too- just to realize what is happening now, where you are now and how you feel now and responding on the now opposed to previous events or even future events our minds take us to or our emotions.

So anywayssss 🤓, on things being temporary …I’ll say it for the remainder of my life here in the physical or as long as I can say it, EMBRACE (the shit) out the GOOD TIMES and really do your best to push through, (and learn and GROW from), the difficult. It truly is important to do. I have learned and I think I’ve always appreciated the good and can remember much of my life and I think it’s because, I was present I those moments but, I have learned even more so post- trauma/ loss. It teaches you… tragedy does- it’s hard and unwanted but, you can’t deny the lessons in it all; painful, harsh, blessed from learning… lessons. It’s also hard to explain …some people may not have the same perspective about it but, again..another thing I think often … we each have our own perspectives; we may not see it the same way. But, even if we differ, which, we just do … we are all unique; appreciating each other along the journey though?…yes, absolutely. Overall, I think it’s about being mindful in our journeys; on and in our own paths. Sometimes, you find someone who sees it just that way too and you embrace it together. Sometimes … others mindfulness isn’t the same way you think and that’s fine too- you learn from each other. Keeping an open mind in it all can help too.

In a beautiful moment -soak it up and in a difficult moment, find something (or someone) to help you through. Was thinking too, a good thing to recognize is the good in situations even if they seem bad, again… perspective. As I watched the stars last night, I couldn’t see them much when I was near the street lights, I mean some appeared but, not as many as I knew I could see if I had stepped into the dark… when I walked into the cemetery and looked up…. amazing – so beautiful and it was the darkness that helped me see the Light better. ✨🙏🏻💫.

Just some random thoughts … gracias for reading and be kind to one another. Keep looking up!

Enjoy the moments; embrace them.

Until next time, have a day! 🌮

Peace, Jenny ✌🏻

#Haveaday 🌮 #youreaskyfullofstars ✨#keeplookingup

Don’t get caught up in worldly (materialistic) ways; instead, ground yourself, seek your spiritual side. And be hopeful to not resort to being unkind just because, you’ve experienced unkindness; It’s better to continue to share love. Be patient with love.
Go for simple for a moment if you feel the stress of life, the wonder of what-if’s, the feeling of not doing enough, the feeling of uncertainty and sadness; water a plant, plant a veggie, weed the ground or admire the weeds or smoke some, ha (whatever it is that takes you there, to simple, to feeling okay), look at a butterfly, climb a tree and sit in it- go simple because, really simplicity can make you realize how small we are in a big universe; many of our own problems are just thoughts in our minds. Think of others; resort to empathy. 💞 Hug someone you love, hold hands if you are blessed to have one by your side; make love if you can- get vulnerable for a moment- it’s okay- love really is real sometimes, right? Believe in love; it comes in many forms. And if you can’t it share first hand; choose real; choose solitude if you must; share love in many ways in the universe- love with an open hand too. Don’t get caught up ….

I’m trying to. That’s what we can do … keep trying, keep fighting for the good. Keep resorting to empathy and kindness. Maybe go save a frog today or a turtle, maybe sit in the silence of nature barefoot in the grass, maybe go for a swim and really feel the water on you, maybe just keep the faith and be in right NOW and know that whatever will come, will come …

And listen to others. Set yourself and own expectations and ideas aside for a bit and be open to listening and go for that empathy.

I don’t know; It’s sounds like I’m dreaming … it sounds like I am believing in a perfect world. It’s not true … it’s not all of what I believe in- I do believe in the darkness and sadness too; only good is surely not what I’ve seen but, it’s what is hopeful and it is what can help us keep going; it’s what i try to go back to, to resort to recognizing it. It’s better than falling into the darkness which I will admit I have done and will do again I am sure; I’ve laid in bed and cried feeling alone – maybe you have too; I’m sorry if you have… it isn’t a good feeling but, it’s a feeling and all feelings make up life. There are other times though, your face and stomach are so sore from laughter, You sit and count your blessings above your troubles. It’s just all life and that’s okay… the ups, the downs…all of it, life…

Some crazy times we are all experiencing; I’m not sure the answers and we all have free will do to whatever we will do to feel okay in life and it all…

May you feel and find a piece of peace today. Realize that the breaths in and out that you are experiencing, are happening because they are meant to; be mindful that your heart is also beating for that reason. 💞

Be kind to others- be easy and kind to yourself. You are doing alright.

Gracias for reading if you still are 😉 …and I truly really hope you feel some love today. I’ve realized that our love being accepted and received can help us feel loved back; kind of cool; circles around. Love truly is what it’s all about.

If you don’t have someone right near you..even sharing a smile with a stranger can go a long way. That person may just need it. Or maybe you just stay away today and reflect – it’s all okay.

Just be.

Until next time, have a day! 🌮

Peace, Jenny. ✌🏻

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